Would you like to talk about the post at all @Captain24@Bow? I know you are both forum friends and here to support one another, so I want to make sure you're feeling okay. I am more than happy to be here with you to hold that space? (If you'd like, just let me know.) 🥰
And @Captain24 maybe some rest is what you need right now? I know when I am feeling this way, simply surrendering to sleep is the best thing to reset. 💛
@Captain24 dont really have an issue with you sorry, just other people and stuff. But obviously doesn’t matter . I can’t be bothered with stuff anymore
Im sorry I was so open last night about everything. I don't promise to not do it again though.
I don’t do tired very well and am very touchy and take every thing the wrong way. Most of my arguments occur when I’m so exhausted and I get an attitude. It’s no excuse but just wanted to explain. I will try to think before I ‘speak’
I think I get what other issue is a related to as well though. Me… and with the other stuff. I just want to say that I don’t ask for it, I never tag unless responded to. I’m sorry you are missed or ‘unseen’. I think I’m getting what you are saying? Please correct me if I’m wrong.
I had a really deep hard appointment with my psych. I’m exhausted and drained. Oh and emotional. I nearly cried a couple of times. Apparently I have to tell myself that it’s ok for my to cry but it’s hard to believe.
The mirema that I had inserted during my surgery 2 weeks ago has a hormone in it. After doing some research apparently it can cause depression and mood changes, also can make adhd worse.
I have to try and get an appointment with my GP to talk to him about it and see if it’s short term or ongoing. Plus I need scripts for my anti-psychotic and antidepressants. She doesn’t want to have me deal with withdrawals as well. Getting an appointment is so hard.
To top everything off I think I have my period but I can’t be sure if it is or if it’s from the mirema. I wish it never happened.
All my mood changes that I describe also match with a mixed bipolar episode and heading towards a depressive episode but it could just be hormones. I’m so confused right now. While answers would help to understand what’s going on it doesn’t change the way I’m feeling and it doesn’t lessen the current impact.
It doesn’t help with my just existing. The ‘I don’t care if I’m alive’. I am safe as I just don’t have the energy for anything else. I don’t want to actually end my life. But if it was over I couldn’t care less.
I had the rod in my arm for many years @Captain24 and when I went to rehab and seen the gp there she told I should really get it out cause it can cause/make depression worse.
