I can’t cope

[Snowie]

It is hard to tell our supports everything @Captain24 At least your CM knows which is really good. It might make it easier coming from her when you talk to your pdoc. Least you don't have to repeat yourself. Can you do your bloods tomorrow and then treat yourself to something afterwards? Maybe like a reward for doing them.

Hoping you can get a nap and you have a bit more time with Angel.

Sending lots of positive vibes 💗💗

[fluffylight]

Lots of hugs to you @Captain24

Do you have work today? It sounds like your body and mind is needing rest, I hope that the nap gives you some rest that you deserve.

Thank you for thinking of my siblings and I 🙂

[Captain24]

Ive just hopped into bed @fluffylight. Im hoping for at least 2hrs. I finished nightshift at 7 this morning got home at 8. At this stage I’ve been awake for 22 hrs straight 

[Bow]

Hope you’re fast asleep snoring now @Captain24  and get enough sleep. Being awake for 22hrs is a lot! 

I’ve been feeling fairly vulnerable today after all those triggers last night. Sorry that you were also triggered. Somethings that we think should just be kept inside our heads and not said on here. I’ve actually unsubscribed from all threads at the moment. Did that a few weeks. Just what I need at the moment. I come read where I feel I can hopefully feel safe and handle. But sometimes curiosity gets me! Or being tagged! 

I have to go get bloods again on Friday. How about we go together? My support worker isn’t available to come with me cause she’s in training. We could be accountable to each other to make sure we both go get them done. I do need to go early in the morning though. 

Sorry that your psych and gp appointments were hard. Hope you got some support though. 

[Captain24]

I did get 2 hrs of sleep @Bow. So that sort of helps. 

I know I can be triggering at times. I will admit to that. Hence the trigger warning and box things. I wish you could do them on your phone. When I put up the warning I’m thinking of you and don’t want you to read it just incase it affects you. 

Im out of town on Friday but I am making a CM appt tomorrow so I will let her know and she will make me get them done while I’m there. But I will go with you on Friday. I’ll be in the road but I’ll check in each town I come to, to support you. 

[Captain24]

Im feeling really sad right now. Im trying to hold myself together but I just can’t. We have a final vet appt for Angel at 5pm tomorrow. 

I didn’t cry this much when nan went to Jesus. That’s what we use to tell her. 

[Bow]

Oh I’m sorry about angel @Captain24  that’s really hard. Please be gentle on yourself. 
I remember when I had to say goodbye to my old cat. He was such a beautiful animal, I was so devastated. I actually took time off work cause I was so heartbroken. 

Glad you got some sleep.

I wish we could use the trigger warning box on our phone too- perhaps that something in the new co-design process that we could raise? I know that I can be trigger too, but I am trying really hard to be more mindful of what I post now. I was getting into too much trouble. 

Thanks. I hope you manage to get yours done tomorrow. 

[Jynx]

Oh @Captain24 😭

That is so, so hard. Losing a pet is its own kind of grief, they are as much family to us as anyone we're related to. We spend years of our lives with them, and they support us through everything. I have no words that can make this better, but I am holding you in my heart, and sending you so much care and compassion. We'll be here to walk beside you as you go through this 💜

[tyme]

Hi @Bow @Captain24 ,

@Captain24 , I'm so sorry to hear about Angel. As much as you knew it was coming, I recognise it doesn't make it less painful.

We are here for you.

@Bow , I hope today has been okay for you.

[Snowie]

@Captain24 sorry to read about Angel. They really do become a big part of our family. Please give yourself the time to grieve.