I can’t cope

[Ru-bee]

Huh it seems like I didn't hit post on my reply to this @Captain24 I thought I'd responded about an hour ago 😅

I'm having a pretty good day, which is extra nice because I wasn't feeling too great at the start of the week, but I've been trying to be good about my self care and I'm feeling much more like myself!

Glad your training day is nearly over! Sounds like and rest and recovery might be in order once you get back home. Do you have anything planned for the rest of the day?

[Captain24]

That’s really good that you have been looking after yourself @Ru-bee. I really don’t understand how self care works. I’ve tried and it doesn’t seem to make things better. 

It’s over and I’ve just gotten home. I’m really not ok. I’ve climbed into bed for a rest and hopefully I’ll feel better. Right now I think it’s the only place I should be. 

[tyme]

Ello there @Captain24 , sup?

[Ru-bee]

Yeah it can be tricky @Captain24  and I feel like people talk about self-care in different ways. For me self-care is just doing things that I know will ultimately help my wellbeing.

Like because I was feeling anxious I knew that the things I needed to focus on were getting enough sleep, getting some fresh air, tidying up my space, and staying off my phone would all be acts of self-care that would support me to feel less anxious and a bit more balanced. Really, self-care is  such a broad term that it can get confusing. 

See, I would say that you allowing yourself to rest right now is an act of self-care. I'm glad that you are resting and I hope it helps you to feel better too!

[Captain24]

It’s good you know what you need to do, what works best for you @Ru-bee. Maybe one day I’ll get there. 

I couldn’t rest. It feels like an elephant is sitting on my chest. It hurts to breathe, my heart is racing so much it feels like my heart is going to pound out of my heavy chest. 

A big day of having to socialise @tyme. It’s taken a toll on me. A huge one

[Ru-bee]

No wonder you couldn't sleep @Captain24 Are you feeling like you're experiencing some anxiety or panic right now? 

[Captain24]

Probably anxiety but I do feel panicked. @Ru-bee Im shaking. 

[rav3n]

@Captain24 aww building a snowman or even finding one sounds wholesome! haha so valid, i'm not a fan of the cold/snow but at the same time, i really want to learn how to snowboard. 

it was really nice and warm for a bit! and then it got cloudy and i wasn't wearing enough layers to stay out longer. but i did really enjoy it, will definitely be going out more! 😊

yes he loves it so much! since i switched to morning shifts, he's picked up that i come near the kitchen (which is near the backyard door) at 11am most mornings for a drink... and like clockwork, he's waiting near the door when i enter the kitchen and he starts scratching it nonstop until i open it 😅 it's funny to me cos he was never this smart! aww its so nice watching them hop around the house, hey? 

i'm guessing you're home now? hope you're able to rest up and do something stimulating!! do you still do arts/crafts?

[Ru-bee]

Are there any tools that you feel you could try right now that might be helpful @Captain24? 

I know you've talked about dropping anchor, doing some grounding, would those help at all? 

[Captain24]

I can’t drop anchor as that’s going to bring too much up and I’m not ready for that @Ru-bee.

I just went out in the cold but that didn’t work it just made me more miserable because I was cold. I’m going to try putting my hands in hot water in the sink. A suggestion from my psych.