Tw Not Coping

[Kyle1]

@Birdofparadise8  Do you take medication for it?

I do, but it's increasingly ineffective...

[Shaz51]

wow @Birdofparadise8 , @Kyle1 , you live in tassie 

i an in far north queensland 

hello @creative_writer 

tooo hot in summer @Jynx , winter is nice at 25 degrees 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes and I feel it just makes everything worse. Each time it has increased my suicidal thoughts get way worse @Kyle1 

Though, at the moment they have been really bad over the past week and I've been on the most recent increase for like 6 weeks. 

[Birdofparadise8]

I don't live in Tassie anymore I moved to Vic a couple weeks ago @Kyle1 

[Kyle1]

@Birdofparadise8 me too! ... Exactly that.

The drs assure me it isn't a downside to the medication, so I just don't understand.

It just continues to press down...

[creative_writer]

Moving out for the first time can be hard @Birdofparadise8, @Kyle1. I did live by myself for a bit for uni, but once my family moved back, is started living with them again.

@Kyle1, meds need to be reviewed over time. My meds did a good job at stabilising me for a good time, doesn’t seem to be doing that anymore.

@Shaz51, Queensland weather is really something.

[Jynx]

@Birdofparadise8 Yeah unfortunately it's a common experience for SI to increase with meds increase, which can be really rough. Continuing to have SI as well to me just says you're really struggling and that urge to escape your circumstances is super high. 

I know it probably feels like a bad sign if things feel like they're getting worse. But it doesn't necessarily mean that they will continue in this way, and that things will never be okay again.

I love this comic, Chats with Void, and thought I'd share one with you, one that has helped me in the past to keep holding on: 

The only thing that is inevitable is that things will always change. You won't feel this way forever. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Mmm it's very annoying I am hoping to see a psychiatrist so hopefully, that might help get me on something that will help. If not I really want to go cold turkey and just see how I am after not taking them @Kyle1 

[Birdofparadise8]

I've been on this current medication for like three and a half months, and it's not doing anything. I was on a different one before that for like four. I just wish I could see some glimmer of hope. I can't keep getting these increases in suicidal thoughts all the time. 

Last week it happened three times when I felt I was ready to go to ED. I just hope it doesn't happen again tonight @Jynx. 

[Kyle1]

@Birdofparadise8  Yeah, brave choice going cold Turkey. If it comes to that, though, atleast wait until you have holidays from Uni.