@outlander yep, I know what you mean. For some, they may have one episode of depression etc and recover a few months later, whereas for others it's a longer journey, and for some it's a lifelong living with it situation (which can be super tiring at times).
Let's look at the facts we have in front of us...you mention there was a time you felt you couldn't stop self harming, and yet, for an entire year you didn't. This is something to be really proud of, it means you've managed to find other healthier coping mechanisms that you now know how and when to put in place. I hope you can recognise that in yourself, and if that's a struggle today then I hope it's okay that I'm over here proud of you 😊
You mentioned that you feel like you don't fit in with people your own generation and find it easier to relate to those who are older than you, that's something I've related to at different times in my life too.
I wonder if you've heard of the "Social Clock"? It's a theory I learned recently which really resonated. The theorist believed that society was governed by this concept of a social clock – where we adhere to societal norms of reaching milestones i.e. graduating uni at a certain age, having children by X year etc. For me, I think this has led to making comparisons (which really are the thief of joy) and at times feeling like I don't fit in. Not sure if that's something you can relate to but thought I'd share.
I'm sitting in your corner with you this afternoon and I believe in you @outlander.
Please know that you fit right in here 💚
